This writing challenge was given to me by my dear sister Michelle, when I stated I needed to write. "Letting go of what you learned to embrace what you will evolve into can cause a grieving disposition."
(Michelle - thank you! I needed this! I hope you enjoy it.)
Anytime you have to release something, it's truly a matter of tearing a part of you "from" you.
It's worst than getting cut or shot because those are external wounds that heal from the inside out.
But...
What happens when your pain begins internally? How do you heal that internally? How do you literally inflict pain upon yourself from the inside, and attempt to heal it the same way.
Many people can't. We ignore the hurt, and attempt to fix it with external things. But the thing about grief is, you carry it with you - because don't you see? Whatever you had to let go of - is already inside of you? Already a part of you?
So it's impossible to substitute it with external comforts. Sometimes we repress it, and it manifests in moments that trigger us. Very seldom do we get to the root of the trigger; we simply react.
Grief is a result of death in anyway. It may be a relationship. It may be a friendship. It may be a job.
It (grief) is powerful because no matter what facet of life it's in, it is apart of your identity.
How do you separate "you" from yourself?
Well...
You have no choice except to let go; because when you don't - you slowly self destruct.
See, the thing is - grief is trick; because you think that if you don't let go - you'll be ok. It hurts too much to let go; when honestly - it's hurting you MORE to hold on to something that is destructive to your destiny.
One thing I learned years ago from an elder was to be unattached. This doesn't mean I don't care about things; but after so many cycles of grieving things and nearly loosing myself in that grief, I found it way more peaceful to remain unattached and simply always be ready for the Most High to move me, remove me, remove people, places, and things on this journey.
Grief gets better when you choose to make your mind more grateful for that thing that you're letting go; when you choose to release it willingly rather than hold on to it, you see it? It will hurt. Yes. But it will also heal, for that thing that is to replace it is sure to bring you life.
Yes, grief is death in every sense.
But as I say, "anything that's not growing is dying."
So if you're holding on to something that isn't bringing you life beloved (the life and light of Yeshua) - you're dying anyway ... a slow... comfortable ... death.
#grief
#letgo
#moveforward
#unattached